3 am

It's almost 3 am and I can't sleep. So many things are going thru my mind. Praying for friends and family who are battling for their lives, and others who are ready for their lives to be over so they can go on to Heaven. Oh how my heart cries out for the healing that my friends and family members need, and for the peace that those who look to the next world as a good place to go. I'm torn by my belief that God heals and my lack of faith that He really will. Boy, am I a conundrum. My thoughts go back and forth, believing and then doubting. Do others feel this, too?

Too sick to post much, but am out of school for the summer. One more Fall and Spring semester and I will be out of college!!! I passed all the classes this term. SOOO glad! 
I'll come back in a couple days, when this crud is over, to write again. 
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